When you want something really hard, you give your heart out to get it. At the beginning, when it seems that things are going to work out, you fill your head up with expectations and hopes, then when things start to get harder and you realize that after all it is not as simple as you thought it was, you will try to convince yourself that it is just a bad time. Finally, when you get to the point that you can't do nothing else about it and you'll have to trust faith to make it for you, you'll pretend everything is ok and try to fight your tears, however, you will start to rust inside, bit by bit and even though you say it doesn't hurt, it does, in fact it hurts like hell.

I guess I'm stupid...